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December 4th, 2006

For those who are curious, we had our appointment with Dr. Gentry, our Reproductive Endocrinologist, today. We have to get another SA (semen analysis) done, and with my next period in January we will begin Clomid pills and Novarel injections. Please pray for us! I honestly can't wait just to get the process started! It feels good.........now here's to waiting one more month! In case anyone is curious about those meds, I am including some information! Happy Reading!

I am double-posting this on myspace and here for those who are truly interested!

Clomid Use and Abuse by Gary S. Berger, M.D.

Some women can't get pregnant because they don't secrete enough LH and FSH at the right time during the cycle and, as a result, they don't ovulate. For these women, the first drug doctors often prescribe is clomiphene citrate (Clomid, Serophene). This synthetic drug stimulates the hypothalamus to release more GnRH, which then prompts the pituitary to release more LH and FSH, and thus increases the stimulation of the ovary to begin to produce a mature egg.

Clomiphene is a good first choice drug when a woman's ovaries are capable of functioning normally and when her hypothalamus and pituitary are also capable of producing their hormones. In short, the woman's reproductive engine is in working order, but needs some revving up.

Structurally like estrogen, clomiphene binds to the sites in the brain where estrogen normally attaches, called estrogen receptors. Once these receptor sites are filled up with clomiphene, they can't bind with natural estrogen circulating in the blood and they are fooled into thinking that the amount of estrogen in the blood is too low. In response, the hypothalamus releases more GnRH, causing the pituitary to pump out more FSH, which then causes a follicle to grow to produce more estrogen and start maturing an egg to prepare for ovulation. Typically, a woman taking clomiphene produces double or triple the amount of estrogen in that cycle compared to pretreatment cycles

If a woman is menstruating, even if irregularly, clomiphene is usually effective, particularly if she develops follicles that aren't reaching normal size. Usually, a mature follicle is about 20 millimeters in diameter, or about the size of a small grape, just before it ruptures and releases its egg. Clomiphene may help small, immature follicles grow to maturity.

A low estradiol level in a woman's blood correlates with an inadequately stimulated, small follicle. A woman having a spontaneous ovulation cycle (that is, ovulating without the aid of fertility drugs) generally has peak estradiol levels ranging from 100 to 300 picograms (one trillionth of a gram)/ml. A woman may have enough hormones to produce an egg, but if her estradiol production by the follicles is low (less than 100 pg/ml), she may not adequately stimulate her cervix to produce fertile mucus or stimulate her endometrium to get ready to accept a fertilized egg for implantation. Clomiphene could boost the weak signals from the hypothalamus to the pituitary to the ovaries.

"A woman who ovulates infrequently, say at six-week intervals or less often, is also a good candidate for clomiphene therapy, since clomiphene will induce ovulation more frequently. The more a woman ovulates, the more opportunities her mature eggs have to be exposed to her husband's sperm and, therefore, the greater her chance to become pregnant.

Clomiphene is also often effective for a woman with luteal phase defect (LPD). A woman with LPD may begin the ovulation process properly, but her ovarian function becomes disrupted, resulting in low production of the hormone progesterone in the luteal phase of the menstrual cycle. Following ovulation, the ovary produces progesterone, the hormone needed to prepare the uterine lining for implantation of the fertilized egg, which has divided and entered the uterine cavity. A fall in progesterone levels in the blood during this critical time can interfere with early embryo implantation or, even if a fertilized egg has already implanted, cause a woman to menstruate too early and end a pregnancy within a few days after implantation.

Using an LH-urine detector kit or keeping a basal body temperature (BBT) chart can help a woman taking clomiphene determine whether the luteal phase of her cycle is shorter than the normal fourteen days. The luteal phase of the cycle, the length of time from ovulation until she menstruates, has a normal range of thirteen to fifteen days. Clomiphene can often "tune up" the hypothalamus and pituitary so they keep producing the hormones the ovary needs to manufacture progesterone throughout the luteal phase.

"Of women whose only fertility problem is irregular or no ovulation at all, about 80 percent will ovulate and about 50 percent will become pregnant within six months of clomiphene treatments. About three percent of women on clomiphene have a multiple pregnancy, usually twins, compared with about one percent in the general population.

If a woman responds to clomiphene and develops a mature follicle (determined by adequate estrogen production and ultrasound examination), but has no LH surge by cycle day 15, then injection of the hormone human chorionic gonadotropin (HCG), which actslike LH, can be given to stimulate final egg maturation and follicle rupture, releasing the egg. The woman tends to ovulate about 36 hours after the LH surge or HCG injection, which can be confirmed by further ultrasound scans.

"Clomiphene is a relatively inexpensive drug, and is taken orally for only five days each month. The doctor attempts to initiate clomiphene therapy so that the woman ovulates on or around day 14 of a regular 28-day cycle. The simplest, most widely used dose starts with one daily 50 mg. tablet for five days starting on cycle day three or five. If a woman ovulates at this dose, there is no advantage to her increasing the dosage. In other words, more of the drug isn't necessarily better. In fact, more may be worse, producing multiple ovulation, causing side effects such as an ovarian cyst or hot flashes, and most commonly, interfering with her fertile mucus production (Emphasis is Theresa Venet Grant's.)

If a woman doesn't ovulate after taking one clomiphene tablet for five days, then her doctor will usually double the daily dose to two tablets (100 mg) in her next cycle, and if she still doesn't respond, then triple the daily dose to 150 mg, or add another fertility medication such as human menopausal gonadotropin (Pergonal) in the next cycle. Some doctors increase the dose up to 250 mg. a day, but this is NOT recommended by either of the drug's two manufacturers. Women tend to have side effects much more frequently at higher doses.

If the dose of clomiphene is too high, the uterine lining may not respond completely to estrogen and progesterone stimulation, and may not develop properly. As a result, a woman's fertilized egg may not be able to implant in her uterus.

Side Effects

Because Clomiphene binds to estrogen receptors, including the estrogen receptors in the cervix, it can interfere with the ability of the cervical mucus glands to be stimulated by estrogen to produce fertile mucus. Only "hostile" or dry cervical mucus may develop in the days preceding ovulation. If this occurs, adding a small amount of estrogen beginning on cycle day 10 and continuing until the LH surge may enhance cervical mucus production.

Some women taking clomiphene experience hot flashes and premenstrual-type symptoms, such as migraines and breast discomfort (particularly if they have fibrocystic disease of the breasts). Visual symptoms such as spots, flashes or blurry vision are less common and indicate that treatment should stop.

Clomiphene is a very safe medication with relatively few contraindications. Preexisting liver disease is one contraindication since clomiphene is metabolized by the liver. Enlarged ovaries are also a contraindication since clomiphene may occasionally produce hyperstimulation of the ovaries.

The hot flashes are just like the hot flashes women experience at menopause when the level of estrogen circulating in the blood is low. The clomiphene fools the brain into thinking that blood estrogen levels are low.

Novarel

What is human chorionic gonadotropin injection?
HUMAN CHORIONIC GONADOTROPIN (also known as 'HCG', brands include A.P.L.®, Chorex®, Novarel®, Ovidrel®, Pregnyl®, Profasi®) is a hormone that is used for different reasons in men and women. HCG has actions similar to a hormone produced by the pituitary gland in both sexes, called LH, or luteinizing hormone. HCG can help women with fertility problems. To increase a woman's chance of getting pregnant, HCG is used in combination with other fertility drugs. For some men or adolescent males, HCG helps to stimulate the production of testosterone (male sex hormone) and sperm. HCG may also be used in select male children with cryptorchidism, a specific birth problem of the testes (male sex part). Human chorionic gonadotropin injections are available from many manufacturers; not all brands are interchangeable. Ovidrel® is the only recombinant (lab-derived) HCG product currently available.

How should I use this medicine? HCG is usually for injection into a muscle, like the thigh or buttocks. Occasionally the injection is given under the skin instead.

For women receiving infertility treatments: The HCG injection will be given by a health care professional during the day indicated by the doctor during the fertility treatment cycle. It will be given as one dose per cycle under the direction of a doctor with experience in managing fertility disorders. You may be taught how to give this medicine to yourself. Your fertility specialist will explain the needed procedures.

What side effects may I notice from receiving HCG?
Side effects that you should report to your prescriber or health care professional as soon as possible:

Any symptoms of rare allergic reactions:
•difficulty breathing or shortness of breath
•itching
•skin rash or hives
•swelling of the areas of the mouth or throat

For women on fertility treatments:
•indigestion
•nausea, vomiting
•passing small amounts of urine
•shortness of breath
•stomach area or pelvic pain or bloating
•swelling
•rapid weight gain

Side effects that usually do not require medical attention (report to your prescriber or health care professional if they continue or are bothersome):
•headache
•mood changes, such as irritability, restless feelings, or anger
•pain, irritation or inflammation at the injection site
•tiredness

What should I watch for while taking HCG?
For women on HCG for fertility treatments:
Your prescriber or health care professional must closely monitor you.

If you are a woman receiving HCG to help you get pregnant, it is important to keep all records required by your health care professional on body temperature and intercourse, and to carefully follow any directions for urine or blood testing or ultrasound exams. If you think you have become pregnant, contact your prescriber at once.

Certain fertility treatments increase your chances of having multiple babies, like twins or triplets.

Drinking alcoholic beverages or smoking tobacco may decrease some person's chances of becoming pregnant. Talk with your health care professional about not drinking alcohol and decreasing tobacco use during your fertility treatments.

November 13th, 2006

Christmas Pics..........

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I promised them.....here they are!!



Here's the Christmas tree.



This is the tree lit up in the dark.



This is my gorgeous new Christmas tree skirt. I just love the old-fashioned look!



Our fireplace all decorated.



J.D.'s deer dressed up for the holidays!



The bay window is all Christmas!

Okay folks here ya go. The outside isn't done yet, but I will post more pics after that is done!

November 5th, 2006

Christmas

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Yes, I said the dreaded C word. I am sooo ready to put my stuff up. I am probably going to start that this weekend. I love it! It is soooo nice out to start the outside lights. We really don't do much outside yet, we are still young! Last year we didn't do anything because J.D. was so sick. The year before we ran lights up our sidewalk and when it snowed we turned them on and it was gorgeous! I absolutely will be doing that one again! We have an arch this time so that will be pretty all lit up. We also have J.D.'s deer in the house now. My mom always decorates her deerheads, so I will be doing that too. I might as well embrace the ugly things! I will also be decorating the stairs! I really like all the flowers that they have at Wal-Mart. I would rather decorate with those than the garland. As soon as I am finished there will be pics posted here and on myspace!

October 30th, 2006

Tears

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A few people have been asking me for an update. I know I have been slacking here. This has been a busy couple of weeks with school because I have had several HUGE papers due and a few reading assignments that have been really long.......Getting so run down from school! I am ready to be done!

I have also been feeling slightly depressed lately. I know that some people who read here know that I have been dealing with fertility issues, others have probably been able to figure it out, but just in case you are one who doesn't know the details here ya go.....I have endometriosis, which I knew about since I was young, even though my doctor refused to tell me that! Well, since me and J.D. have been kinda trying (or I guess just not really not trying ;) for about 6 years we decided to take a visit to a Reproductive Endocrinologist last year. Well, they did the dye test and all looked normal, so he decided to do a laparoscopy in October of last year. During that they found the endo, a cyst on my left ovary, and polyps and fibroids in my uterus. Well, the RE gave us a few months to try on our own thinking that removing those things might help us, but as you all do know, I ended up with heart problems that kept us from going futher with fertility treatments. So, now the cardiologist asked us to wait 6 months from my pacemaker implant. In February we are back! In the mean time, I just found out that a friend has become pregnant. Well, just about all of my friends have kids. Seriously, I just get a little sad because of course those with kids do more together than us without so we are left out. Plus, just the general dealing with fertility issues sucks anyways. So, right now it is just a waiting game as is life. The trick is staying sane while waiting! I am reverting to crazy Steph sometimes. J.D. is great at getting me out of the funks I find myself in, so I am so grateful to have such a wonderfully understanding and caring husband. We have been through alot together so this is just one more obstacle for us to overcome!

Well, I really do have homework to do so I better run! I promise I will try to keep this updated a little more!

October 13th, 2006

Busy Week

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Okay everyone! Its that time!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR AUNT CAROL! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!

Sorry I am a day late, and always a dollar short! But, nonetheless HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

And for the next one!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY 13TH BIRTHDAY KELSEA, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!

Turning 13 on Friday the 13th! OHHH, creepy!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BOTH! Love ya bunches and bunches!

And next.....

HAPPY 4TH ANNIVERSARY TO MY SWEET HUBBY! I love you too, bunches and bunches!

Now, off to write a 900-word paper that is due today! Yea, me!

October 10th, 2006

Letting go

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Well, I am sorry in a way that I joined myspace. There was a gal that I was best friends with for a few years in high school. I loved this girl. Well, as most people do, she changed. Or maybe I changed and noticed how she treated me. I don't know for sure. Either way, we stopped being friends about 1 month before my wedding. It was really sad, how it happened. She has started writing to me on the myspace site and I had to tell her to stop because it is painful. I can't help it, its true. She hurt me, she stopped caring about me, about us.

I remember the night of the final blow-out. It was actually my bachelorette party and she barely ate with us, was on the phone the whole night, and refused to go bowling when we went. She sat outside on the phone. She complained about herself, she did not have fun. She made my party about her. Then we went back to a friend's house to stay the night and she sat outside there too. Well, needless to say, we had it out. I told her to get out. The next day I called her and told her to never talk to me again. That was the end of it. It may sound harsh on my part, but this was not her first offense. She continuously used me, lied to me, and made our friendship only about her. She was one of those people that when you complained about your day, she had to tell you all about hers and how much worse it was.

Anyways, back to the future.........we are now here in today. I can't be her friend now. She drained me and my energy. I realize that now.

So, the lesson for today. If someone is not treating you right, get rid of them, let them go. Yes, it is difficult, but do it. I don't care if it is a spouse, friend, cousin, or sibling. You have to move on. I used to depend on alot of people for my own happiness. I used to care about my sister's opinion of me, I depended on her and her approval, but not anymore. I had to let her go. She doesn't care about me, not really. Only when it suits her. That drained me, and I don't need it.

Of course, these are people I will love forever. I will care about them forever, but I will not let my happiness depend on them anymore.

Is there someone you need to let go of today?

October 4th, 2006

Don't hate me!!

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While I totally love my LiveJournal, I have been sucked into the Myspace vortex.........

You can visit my site there at:

http://www.myspace.com/stephaniehorst

I probably won't be blogging there, we'll see.

You all wanna know about my kitty cat right? Cajun is fiesty as ever, just deballed and declawed! Actually he layed around for a few days, but is now being just as spicy as he was before. We will just have to see if this calms him down any.....he is still just a kitten.

September 30th, 2006

Are you American?

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Well, I was told by a friend that I should post something on here to clarify myself, so that is what I am doing.

I am not a racist, not prejudiced, not anything even close to that! My opinion is that we are AMERICAN, not anything else. You are AMERICAN, not anything else. If you are living here, you are American, if your parents lived here their whole lives, you are American, if your grandparents lived here, you are American. I hate that people say they are "something-American". Italian-American, African-American, Asian-American........No you are not! If you moved to China would you say you are "American-Asian"? NO! Would you tell your kids that you raised in that country that they are "American-Asian"? NO! Would you tell your grandkids that they are "American-Asian" if they were raised only in China? Of course not! Now, if you have never even been to the country that you claim to be from, you are not from there. If you have not been to Italy, you are not Italian-American. If you have never been to Africa, you are not African-American. If you are not proud to be from this country, go somewhere else and be from that country. I would love to not have to pay for your income when you get old and can't work anymore (yeah, that's when you are American). Now, I am all for knowing your heritage and history. I am Italian, Indian, Greek, and probably several other things....we all are a melting pot. That is American. I am NOT going to call myself Italian-Indian-Greek-Other-American......why? Because I am not! I am American and that's it. I also think it is great to celebrate your family's individual traditions, but those are American traditions. Those are your family's traditions. That is what is great about your family, nobody has the exact same traditions, no matter what country you are from. We need to be proud to be part of this country, pround to be American. I don't see different nationalities. I only see people.

Also, you have skin. All skin is a different color, nobody has the exact same color....NOBODY! If you go to Africa, you will see all different colors, not just dark. That is part of being human, if you don't want to be human, then don't! There are those people of every skin color who want special treatment because of that and the truth is that I just don't get it. It is about your chemistry, not anything else, that makes you that color. Does that make you special--NO! Not if you are light, dark, pink, purple, yellow, or green! You are not special because of your skin color, so stop expecting to be treated differently because of it!

That is my opinion for the day..........you are welcome!

September 29th, 2006

Election Time

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Elect Stephanie !
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Okay have you seen the commercials for these elections? I am laughing at them so hard tea came out of my nose.......the one where Ellsworth is talking then all of a sudden a voice cuts in "Sorry Brad, that's exactly what this election is about".....what in the world is that?

I say just elect me and this world would be great! Glowsticks for everyone! The firefly campaign of 2006! Whoohoo!!!

September 28th, 2006

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Well, I have missed school all week......I just didn't feel like going today. That's just how it goes.

But I do have something that I want to say. You know that there are those people in the world who only care about themselves...those who will say terrible things to you and really mean them. Again, that's just how it is. I know someone who has tried to get pregnant, but she is very vain and rude (we can call her Elly). Truthfully what happened was that, on another site, a girl hopped on and started saying that she was depressed and needed some support (Let's call her Amanda). Another chica stepped up and told her to just get over it (Let's just call this one Becky). Well, this poor depressed girl (Amanda) had been having trouble with her marriage, had been trying to go through infertility treatments, but her husband had lost his job so they had to quit because of money problems....wouldn't you be a little depressed, too? Well, when Becky* stepped up and told Amanda* to just get over it, Amanda* fought back and told Becky* that of course she only came to the site for support and was basically just surprised not to be getting the support. At that point Elly* stepped in and not only stuck her nose in where it didn't belong as it was not her fight, she cussed Amanda* out and got really violent. I just couldn't stand that as I understand depression and what happens to people so I told Elly* that maybe she should just step back and realize that depression is something to be dealt with, not something you yell at someone for having!!!! Elly* of course did not enjoy me telling her this, so she told me off, too and is now cussing me out and calling me names all over this other site. Then she got most everyone else against me, so I read her personal blog (which she put out there for others to read, I didn't just go and find it) and saw her posting on having a mixed child and about raising the child to have both worlds. After that I made the comments on my site because that was what I was feeling about Elly*. I believe that some people just don't think before they do things and then cannot accept that their choice may have been wrong as is the case with Elly* jumping on Amanda*. Now, I am not friends with Amanda*, have not talked to her since, but I am worried about her because I have tried to get ahold of her just to see how she is doing now, but no response. Me, being the person that I am, am really concerned with the mental stability of her and only want what is best for her.

Of course, Elly* continues to bash me on her personal site and with her "friends" on the original forum. She received a comment from someone and believed it to be from me and then she threatened violence to me. I recently found out that her latest IVF attempt did not work and for that I am actually grateful because I am beyond against violence. I have seen it too much and would not condone it for anyone under any circumstance. I do not believe in war, do not believe in fights, and would never threaten anyone with such because the truth is that I would never follow through with it. I just believe there are other ways to settle disputes and I am a HUGE fan of debate and talking things out. All of this girl's actions indicate a violent temper that makes me fear for any children she may have.

Gosh, I guess I have more to say than I thought I did. I just feel so badly for those people who have these problems because there is so much help out there now, it can be fixed before it gets to a scary point, but most of those kinds of people will not get help. They would rather blame others for their actions.

Now, for better news--my devil kitty is in the vet's office getting neutered and declawed today! Yeah! I get to pick him up tomorrow and actually I miss him!

September 26th, 2006

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Jack L. Loudermilk

Jack L. Loudermilk, 73, of Terre Haute died at 10:28 p.m. Sunday, Sept. 24, 2006, in Union Hospital. He was born Sept. 13, 1933, in Terre Haute to Paul Loudermilk and Opal Metcalf Loudermilk.

Survivors include his wife, Nina McKee Loudermilk, whom he married April 12, 1952; one son, Gregory Loudermilk; five daughters, Diana Scobee, Vickie Carter, Paula Swearingen, Lora Edwards, and Ruthann Loudermilk Franks; three sisters, Joan McKee, Janice Kunth and Carol Kirk; 11 grandchildren; 17 great-grandchildren; and several nieces and nephews. He was preceded in death by his parents.

He was a lifetime hunter and fisherman, and enjoyed boating and camping.

Services are 1 p.m. Wednesday in DeBaun Springhill Chapel, with the Rev. Vince McFarland officiating. Burial is in Maple Grove Cemetery in Clay City. Visitation is 11 a.m. until services Wednesday.



This just does not seem to do my grandfather justice. He helped to create a great family, a family I love so much and care about more than anything. This was very strange and very sudden.

September 25th, 2006

Sad today..........

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My Grandpa Loudermilk passed away last night. Nuff said...........

September 21st, 2006

Test time!

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I am sitting outside my classroom right now, studying, well, cramming for my first test of the semester! How totally exciting..........NOT! Well, I should be studying, but I really do the best by reading through everything, then taking a break and doing it again, so this is my break.....everyone wish me luck as I am taking this thing! I have a feeling it is really going to be difficult and the reason I think that is because there are like 5 short-answer, essay type questions. The teacher gave us a study guide, but the short answer study guide had at least 20 possible questions! That is a lot of paragraphs to memorize. I usually try to pick out the ones that I think the teacher will be most likely to pick, then just look over the others and really study the rest, but since this is the first test with this teacher, who knows what he will pick.

Think of me, here we go.........................

September 20th, 2006

Found this today

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I know that there are several people who read my site with various illnesses. I found this website that has t-shirts, bumper stickers, and loads of other things for different diseases! Very cute site! Check it out--- http://www.cafepress.com/medtees/616561.

September 17th, 2006

Too true

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Your Blog Should Be Green

Your blog is smart and thoughtful - not a lot of fluff.
You enjoy a good discussion, especially if it involves picking apart ideas.
However, you tend to get easily annoyed by any thoughtless comments in your blog.



How true is this???? HaHa!! I am sticking with the pink though for now!

September 14th, 2006

Christmas

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There is the most adorable reindeer at the Apple House. I will advise you not to take any kids in to see it though because they will fall in love with it! It is HUGE-comes up to about my waist and so soft......AHHH! Adorable little gal! Me and Megano fell in love with it and we cuddled with it--but it is wwwaaayyy too much for a little reindeer. Like $399.99 too much! That's right, not a typo! $400 for a stuffed animal!

I have really good news to post too! I was officially invited to join Psy Chi today! What is Psy Chi? It is the National Honor Society for psychology students! I am beyond excited about it! I just have to fill out the application so they have it on record, but I have already made it in! The initiation ceremony will be held in mid-October! I am just so excited! That will help so much in getting into grad school later on! Yeah! See, I knew changing my major was going to be good for me!

September 12th, 2006

Results From Friday

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Everything is good! Yeah! I got to see my scar (not too bad) and I have no restrictions other than not lifting more than 10 pounds! I can drive and I drove to school today!

Another funny story. We were attempting to watch the BIG GAME sunday. The Colts. Well, it was raining and the satellite went out at J.D.s Dad's house, so we thought we could either see if it was on at our house, or go across the street to watch it in JD's empty grandpa's house. I decided to try going home first. It was raining like crazy mind you.....I get out of my car, run around the front of it and BOOM!!! I slip and fall!!! Not just fall, but totally wipe out! I ripped my jeans in the knee and scrape my knee big time! I have a huge bruise on my butt and my arm and leg are sore. Luckily, this was on the right side, not the left! So I am sore all over now! Yuck! Plus, I was completely soaked to the bone! With mud dripping from my hair and clothes! Yucky!

September 7th, 2006

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Hello everyone!

I am back to school today. Hating every minute of it.......nah, not really! What a gorgeous day it is today! Go outside right now! I order you to spend at least 5 minutes sitting on your deck or porch or just on the ground outside right now..........I'll wait!...................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................Oh, your back? Good, now don't you feel better? I know I do!

Well, I started on my antibiotic yesterday, just in case there is an infection. Still feeling tired, but better--no fever this morning. I go back to see Dr. Shatagopam friday. Would love some good news there!!!!

September 5th, 2006

Home again!

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Although I have been home since Friday, I am just now getting around to getting on the computer for things other than homework! Yuck!

Soooo, you want an update huh?
Everything went decent. Except.......I am allergic to the antibiotic they gave me before the surgery. I broke out in hives and red all over! Not a pretty sight. Then, they took me back for the surgery (an hour later) and of course the doctor wasn't ready yet, so I had to lay in the room for over an hour with all the stuff around my head, just my little hole to peak out of, all scrubbed down so noone could come near me to talk to me. Then, the doctor finally got there and guess who is too stubborn to go down? ME!! They could not get me to fall asleep for anything. I guess they ended up giving me 10 shots throughout the surgery, but I kept waking back up and saying "I'm awake, is that okay?" Funny huh!?!? Not really! I remember the end when they were stitching me and that made me so nauseaous that my blood pressure dropped and a nurse had to put a cold rag on my forehead to keep me there with them. So I finally asked what time it was and was told 12:30pm. Okay, so I went back into the surgery room at 9:30 and was told it would only take 1 hour...3 HOURS!!! Imagine what my poor family was thinking! I am sure they thought I had died or something! That's just me being stubborn as usual as J.D. told me. I was wide awake back in the room and barely slept a wink the whole night. Finally caught up to me Sunday though because I slept the day away.
There is a problem now. Not to scare anybody, but I have been having some pretty bad shortness of breath and chest pain. I am going in for an X-ray today just to be sure, so I will update more on that situation.

The really good news is that the pacemaker had worked twice before I had even left the hospital Friday morning and I didn't feel a thing. Yeah! The doctor was very pleased to hear that, it means it is working great.

Now for the fun stuff--pictures! These are from Mary's first birthday party Saturday afternoon and the pictures of my incision. Enjoy!!




Yum, doesn't that cake look yummy!




Pretty blue eyes!




Mary is such a little princess!




Mary is learning to walk.....




Mary loves Uncle J.D.




Practicing????




Ouch!!!!

August 29th, 2006

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Okay, I guess I need to update everyone. I am sure you can guess what I have learned from the lack of posting on here, but here goes.

I need a pacemaker. I am scheduled to go into the hospital at 6am Thursday and the sugery will take place at 8am at Union Hospital and I will be there overnight. I have faith that this is the right thing now because of the second doctor's opinion. He stated to me that this should have been done a long time ago and he was probably right. I have struggled with dizziness for as long as I can remember. I will describe it the way it was described to me........

Everyone has a nerve response to trauma in their heart. Basically, if you were in a car accident and your leg was cut off your heart would recognize that less blood was returning and it would send a message to your brain saying that it is going to need to stop beating in order to save the body from loss of blood. This is a normal and natural response. Mine, however, is not normal or natural. When I stand or sit for long periods of time and my blood stops pumping as much volume back to my heart it goes haywire thinking there is major trauma to my body....so it sends the message to my brain saying that it needs to stop beating. Basically, it is just super, SUPER sensitive (just like me--cancer girl that I am!!) Anyways, the pacemaker will stop the chance my heart stops beating altogether and I will not black out or faint. I will however still have dizzy spells and I will struggle with that for the rest of my life. It is not a cure-all, but simply a chance to attempt to live a normal life like normal people. There are of course complications from the surgery that are possible such as bruising, infection or rupturing my lung, but those are rare and probably will not happen to me (knock on wood)!!! I should be able to continue to do everything I have before except walk through large magnets or get an MRI done--not planning on that happening any time soon, so I should be okay. I also cannot stand in front of the microwave when it is on--okay again, I don't do that. THe major problem I see is that I can only talk on my cell phone from my right side! That will be the biggest pain! Otherwise, I am optimistic and scared!

I am only upset because we got this news Monday, yesterday, and found out while at the doctor's office that JD's grandfather passed away. I said, what a horrible week and it is only Monday!! My grandpa also had heart surgery yesterday (he is fine, doing good!) JD's little sister has her sweet sixteen birthday party Friday night and our niece Mary's birthday party is Saturday! Then, Monday JD's grandma will be having a cook-out as she does every holiday! Busy weekend, but I should get plenty of love and rest because JD will be home--plus he gets a nice 5-day weekend now! I have a ton of homework from my first 2 days, but my teacher's are being very nice and working with me on this since I will miss class Thursday, but I should be back I hope by next Tuesday. I have more homework than everyone else because of it, but I am okay with that. At least they are nice about it!

Well, this will probably be my last post for awhile since I will be attending the funeral tomorrow and in the hospital thursday through friday and such a busy weekend! I will try to post how I am doing afterwards, but it may be awhile! See ya soon---think of me!
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